I found myself being torn between two strong opinions regarding The Body of Christ lately, I knew however i could only respond to one. I’ve been feeling extremely frustrated at the condition of the churches and how the gifts have been prostituted, sort of like how I imagined Jesus might have felt when He discovered them merchandising in His Fathers house.
When not extremely frustrated i find myself groaning along with the world for the true Sons of God to be revealed. I feel a strong determination to just BE the difference i want to see. I remember a time in my ministry where my fellowship group expanded so quickly before i knew it i had a house church. At first it was amazing and we were doing such wonderful work for The Kingdom of God. Before i knew it the enemy came all guns blazing for my personal life and i started to loose perspective.
I made decisions I truly believed to be right at the time, sincerely trusted in my heart Abba was pleased with me. Long story short things started spiraling out of control and it was no longer benefiting The Kingdom. I was very clued up in the Word about Jesus but had no clue how the enemy worked and never knew how to identify his ways. I made some big mistakes all the while still believing i was on Gods path for my life.
Eventually I had to close the church because of a number of different reasons. What gutted me the most wasn’t the fact that i no longer had a church but that so many leaders in ministry saw what was happening and instead of reaching in to help them all judged and labelled me. In that season i felt more alone than i had ever felt in the world, but Jesus of course was faithful through the entire process. Never once did Father take in to account my actions, through it all He was busy observing my heart.
These things all took place a long time ago and there is no hard feelings in me whatsoever, in fact Abba had me sow into each one of those ministries and told me to bless them. However there is one nugget of truth i would like to bring from out of that season of my ministry, and it’s a crucial part that drives my desire for unity in The Body of Christ. It’s that we should never judge anyone regarding what they do, or how they do it. We should always ask Abba to give us the spirit of discernment, to discern the spirits at work.
This way we will never have judgement towards our brothers and sisters, but we will be able to pray for them at all times like Paul instructed. When you have true revelation that there can only be one Body and that there is only one enemy hell bent on destroying it, your perspective changes completely. So when my constant see sawing between frustration and determination stopped, i could finally reach the point where i was no longer concerned about who was doing what and how they were doing it; i could become focused on my own responsibility to redeem the lost. God will certainly stop and expose work that is not His will, but as a loving family we need to stand together like never before in this time.
One last thought, when I was in Jerusalem with Lifestyle Christianity we were 47 ministry leaders from different countries. So debating was inevitable where so many different theologies were at play. The one day we were standing in the temple and a few of the team members were debating and it became heated, at this point a lady stood up and silenced them with her tears. She shared that she was a worker in a children’s mental health hospital, where she saw 5 staff members commit suicide monthly. She said she herself had come out of a serious condition where she had received electro-shock therapy. This had severe effects on her memory. She shared that when someone first introduced her to the love of Christ everything in her changed, she knew that even if she didn’t understand it all, that it was lifesaving and she had to share it with her patients. After a moment of silence she looked at the debaters and said, “the more theology you speak the less worthy of His love I feel, I don’t understand a word any of you are saying”.
The love of God goes beyond anything our minds can conceive, so may our thoughts and opinions never place a limit on His Power.